ok one seminar check, four to go, one critical, one as good as safe, two are they even happening because i checked and there are only two people taking part so far
i’m calling uni in two hours to check if i can pull a trick and change wahlpflichtmodule that would be great
edit i can pull the trick but i still don’t know about the critical and the are they happening courses this is HORROR
edit i think i can manage. still dear god lemme get the critical one i need it ineed i t
EDIT ULRIKE GOT ME A PLACE ON THE CRITICAL ONE!!! but she needs to teach me everything about electricity. its potentially dangerous and amazing
apparently a good break from feeling panicky about the future is making the winter soldier suffer at the hands of alexander pierce if i’d only known that sooner if only
also out of interest what kind of media things would the winter soldier allowed to be exposed to. radio? tv? don’t think so, too much stimuli. music?? being read a story? knitting????? help
also “30 pages” my ass
this is gonna have four-five chapters even and it needs a lot of beta work
MY FUCKING UNI IS A FUCKING CATASTROPHE RN I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE IM SORRY BUT I HAVE TO VISIT YOUR FUCKING COURSES TO GET A FUCKING BACHELORS DEGREE SUCK MY FUCKING ASS WOW!!!! WOW!!!! hello anxiety until thursday when i finally find out if i can finish studying this semester
I just don’t understand where this concept of ‘fake geek girls’ came from. Like, AT ALL.
Cus when I look for fandom related stuff like 90% of the fan art and the fanfiction and the meta, zines, comics, etc. Like 90% of the shit that I’ve seen is created by women & girls.
And all that stuff take’s a lot of work and research and critical analysis and staring at reference photos for hours.
We are literally the most well versed and invested group in the fandom. So, like, What the fuck boys? You mad you can’t keep up?
I saw an argument, and
I can’t find it now, (edit! KILLERZEBRAS FOUND IT. Go read the original thoughts here: LINK)) but it totally made sense, that there’s a gender split in fandom. Male fandom tends to be a curator fandom; male fandom collects, organizes, and memorizes facts and figures. Male fandom tends to be KEEPERS of the canon; the fandom places great weight on those who have the biggest collection, the deepest knowledge of obscure subjects, the first appearances, creators, character interactions.
Female fandom is creative. Females create fanart, cosplay, fanwritings. Female fandom ALTERS canon, for the simple reason that canon does not serve female fandom. In order for it to fit the ‘outsider’ (female, queer, POC), the canon must be attacked and rebuilt, and that takes creation.
"Male" fandom devalues this contribution to fandom, because it is not the ‘right’ kind of fandom. "Girls only cosplay for attention, they’re not REAL fans!" "Fanfiction is full of stupid Mary Sues, girls only do it so they can make out with the main character!" "I, a male artist, have done this pin-up work and can put it in my portfolio! You, a female artist, have drawn stupid fanart, and it’s not appropriate to use as a professional reference!"
In the mind of people who decry the ‘fake geek girl,’ this fandom is not as worthy. It damages, or in their mind, destroys the canon. What is the point of memorizing every possible romantic entanglement of heterosexual white Danny Rand if someone turns around and creates a fanwork depicting him as a bisexual female of Asian descent (thus subverting Rand’s creepy ‘white savior’ origins)? When Danny Rand becomes Dani Rand, their power is lessened. What is important to them ceases to be the focus of the discussion. Creation and curatorship can work in tandom, but typically, in fandom, they are on opposite poles.
This is not to say that there aren’t brilliant male cosplayers or smashing female trivia experts, this is to say that the need of the individual fan is met with opposing concepts: In order for me to find myself in comics, I need to make that space for myself, and that is a creative force. Het white cis males are more likely to do anything possible to defend and preserve the canon because the canon is built to cater to them.